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Wednesday, December 09, 2009
it's been two thousand years since i've last blogged.
and now i'm on block leave.
away from work, and a whole lotta time to myself.
and i think my usual thoughts.
which gets me down.
cause i think too much and i think too negatively.
nothing seems right at this point in my life.
but i just live on, partying my life away.
partying not for the sake of enjoying my friends' company.
partying to get myself drunk and high.
away from all the troubles and worries.
i wonder if anybody is ever gonna read this.
which is good in a way.
cause then maybe i can really truly vent.
i've resorted to drinking myself to sleep.
drinking beer so that i can fall asleep.
without thinking thoughts.
so i'm typing this a lil drunk.
and a lil depressed.
and i can't and i won't allow myself to show this side of me.
but i need an outlet.
maybe i'll come back to blogging.
it's nice to know that this blog here will live on longer than i ever would.
and lastly, i'f like to say FUCK.
AHHAHAHAHHA.
as i can't freely express myself anywhere else.
as people judge, they always do.
and i care too much about what other people think of me.
too much.
2:24 AM
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