Friday, March 23, 2007

i'm feeling very random.
and i feel like rambling.

i realised my boy and i have very little to talk about over the phone.
i've always not liked talking on the phone except for gossiping/bitching and catching up.

and with my boy, he's not interested in my gossips/bitchings.
and we are around each other like almost 24/7.
so there is obviously no catching up to do. duh.

so normally we just watch tv together over the phone and talk about the show.
and sometimes we just talk about nothing in particular.



i love him with all my heart and all that i have.
but he confuses me.
sometimes he treats me so nice that i feel so pampered and loved.

he would do all the small little things that mean so much.
but other times he seems to neglect me and/or my feelings.

one of my favourite songs can totally describe what i have with my boy.

he's soft to the touch
but afraid at the end he breaks
he's never enough
and still leaves more than i can take

oh i don't know.
i don't know what he's after.
but he's so beautiful.
such a beautiful disaster.

if i could hold on.
through the tears and the laughter.
won't it be beautiful.
just a beautiful disaster.

incidentally. i tried to create a new email today.
because my many email adds are just not very grown-up.

i tried beautifuldisaster@hotmail.com.
and it was taken.
tried it at gmail and it was taken too. :(

so anyway. i was reading through my past posts.
and many interesting/ironic things popped up.

i once used the above song on a guy i had a crush on.
but i am totally over him now and my boy is my one and only.

and check this out:

Friday, January 05, 2007

i want to have twins.
actually.
i really love kids.
but i have no patience.

jack of all trades.
master of none.
i get so interested in things.
but get bored in a minute.

karma is a bitch.

OKAY. that's all.

xoxo
teresa

3:17 AM

this is so ironic considering the hoola that happened. LOL.

and some of my past posts talked about my ex-boyfriend.
the guy that i thought i would marry and live happily ever after.
i thought i would be in love with him till the day we die.

and then something hit me.
i love my boy more than i had ever love the ex.
but i don't wanna marry my boy. weird huh.

and i also looked at the photos i posted.

i can understand why people would choose to call me fat.
but who would call her fat? she has a great figure ok.



she's one skinny ass and a very pretty little thing. :)

i really am very appreciative of what FOO SL and i have.
i have never known how it would feel to have a soulmate.



and i also realised i have love/hate relationships with my loved ones.

i LOVE my family with ALL my heart.
but sometimes my mom's constant nagging gets on my nerves and i ignore her.
and i bully my dad just because he dotes on me and always lets me get my way.

and my da ge is always there for me but i'm not always there for him.
and my er ge is trying to change his bad temperament but i'm not being suppotive.

but at the end of the day i love them like crazy. :)



i have nothing else to say and congratulate me people.
i think this blog entry is my longest post ever. woohoo.

xoxo
teresa