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Friday, October 20, 2006
i had one hell of a bad day.
nothing triggered it.
no one pissed me off.
i didn't quarrel with nobody.
nothing bad happened to me.
i just had a bad day.
always look on the bright side of life people would say.
but i honestly think i am an optimistic pessimist.
or pessimistic optimist. whatever.
i think of all the bad things that could possibly happen.
and then i tell myself.
nah. everything is gonna be okay.
i feel like taking one deep breath and exhaling all these bad feelings out.
but life isn't that way. you can't just forget.
it just gets tucked away in a deep dark corner of your mind/ heart.
and then when it gets too cramped.
everything just bursts out of you with this overwhelming suffocation.
i tried to think of all the things that would cheer me up.
but not even chocolates worked.
i think i'm going through some sort of depression.
where nothing in my life just seems right.
i'm neither here nor there nor anywhere at all.
6:10 AM
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