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Monday, October 23, 2006
i don't know why i see the need to explain myself to him.
a wrong decision that i can't recitify.
maybe foo sl is right.
about me not knowing that i want sth.
i've always stopped myself from blogging about him.
or talking about him.
or thinking about him.
but some things are hard to just throw away.
i regret many of the things i did and said.
i shouldn't have given up.
but then i realise i still haven't given up hope.
that was till the day i saw him after so long.
the day that i think destroyed everything i ever was to him.
EVERYTHING IS SO WRONG.
i dunno if he still cares or think about me.
but i would never want him out of my life.
but i think that's what he wants from me.
for me to be gone.
i want to say at least i still have the memories.
but i don't.
not anymore.
what have i done?
i really just want to know.
what have i done to myself, my life, my everything?
karma can be such a pain in the ass.
5:37 AM
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